Stock Live Trading P135: Quit Gambling

I've realized I'm not cut out to be a gambler because I simply don't have the stomach for it. Take the Micron trade I made yesterday, for example. It was just 20,000 yuan, but I was already on edge and couldn't handle it at all. The moment I saw the option jump 5 points in a minute, I closed my position. There was no way I could have held until the end.

Those who can ride out 2x, 3x, or even 10x gains truly have nerves of steel. I'm growing more and more contemptuous of myself. In the past, I could shrug off daily fluctuations of over a hundred thousand in losses, but now, with just over a hundred thousand left, a few thousand in daily volatility keeps me up at night. I'm really becoming more worthless as I go on. Do I still have a chance to turn things around? It feels like the whole world is in turmoil.

The stocks that have cost me the most this year are all blue-chips. Pinduoduo, Oracle, Microsoft—all blue-chip stocks that have caused me significant losses. I was wrong about value investing, including now Adobe and Amazon. These are giants, yet they can keep falling indefinitely. So, I apologize. I shouldn't have pursued value investing. The world is just a casino because capital is all flocking together. New highs keep getting higher, and new lows keep getting lower. So, what can I do? I finally tried to switch to the main trend, only to get caught in a pullback and take a beating. It's really a matter of either not believing at all, believing completely, believing early, or not believing. That's the logic.

There's no way out. I have no path forward now. I also bought a bit of CRWV, just 20,000 yuan worth of common stock—actually, more than that. Hmm, because I thought Jensen Huang's price target was 87 yuan. So, buying in at 85 should have been very safe, but it directly dropped to 74. In the long run, it should recover. I'll exit at 90 and watch the broader trend. From now on, I'll try to avoid options; they're killers. The market is too volatile right now for me to play around with. I'll just stick to buying common stock.

Common stock + buying the dip + riding the waves + arbitrage, no more collecting rent. Can I survive until the end?